There where literally so many images I wanted to share ... But I ended up just pointing my finger to the screen with closed eyes & popped those in there. I did so many amazing shoots, so many amazing concepts with so many epic people. I simply cannot choose.
Thank you all so much to all designers & models & friends for trusting my ideas, my clients for booking me and letting me make their daydreams come true & capture their beauty. For the asignments off bookcovers, mural art & lookbooks. To all those out there creating with me and inspiring me with words and messages <3
2016 has been both the most difficult and most awesome year of my life so far. So no big words about 2016 except: hard work & giving literally everything. That was it.
It leads me to the next point: 2017 will be my year off balance & kindness.
For two weeks or almost three weeks I've been trying to gather my thoughts to write them down for all of you (or those who read my blog at least). To say I've changed is an understatement. I've started accepting who I am and now I just battle with my self-esteem issues and an overworked heart and mind. Yet at the same time I haven't feel any closer to who I truelly am deep inside. Which I think is one of life biggest lessons you can learn. Because of that I've also realized (and I've been working towards this for the past month consciously) to be more kind and balanced. Needless to say: big words & it's not easy. But it's a good change. I've been trying to be more kind: to myself, to my body & mind, to people around me from the persons behind the counter to trying to stress less. It made me aware that I've become very rigid and overthinking and hold on too strong to thing. Letting go is hard and because of that I'm trying to bring more balance in my life: setting up my new business plan and system, cooking more varied and daily again, going to the gym 2 or 3 times a week for 30 minutes or an hour is on the list too on a regular base. Try to start saving & stop investing (because I really do have enough sometimes; if I buy new material for the studio: it's something I really nééd).
I've realized that those words: balance & kindness, go hand in hand (for me at least). And I constantly try to hold on to them on my down days and up days and regular days. I want to stop doing the 16-20 hours working days & make time for my own life. Stop creating as much and really focus more on what I bring out when I create personal work.
I have a lot to tell about my plans for my business & personal artwork. But thats for another blog. For now I just want to leave 2016 behind me and move on to what lies ahead as a symbolic start (it couldn't be any better timing wise). I just very recently started to realize that I am a freelancer (sounds strange right?! I suddenly realized again this past week that I am a full-time freelancer and it comes with all the perks off good and bad ... So trying to change that mindset around too). I've been in business for half a year now. Successfully as far as a young starter like me can be. That's all that counts now when it comes to the past!
My resolutions also:
1. Be more kind
2. Create balance
3. Work less
4. Work harder & more dedicated
5. Travel to at least 5 different countries
6. Breath & create time for what makes me happy.
And last but not least:
7. Inspire others.
I'm terribly ashamed and I feel like a fraud thinking about it with too much ego but I really, honestly, from the deepest point of my heart: realized I want to inspire others to create art & pursue dreams and fight for what they believe in. To be more brave & be honest to themselves and the world. To continue pushing and going.
I don't know how yet. But I want it to happen.
If you made it this far: thank you. For reading, for supporting, for loving & caring.
You made my life and art worth living and creating.